hello readers:D
101 posts.
feel very sad today.
have been asking myself a question for a very long time,
am i really that detestable?
i think im very detestable.
cuz people look and me and dont want to talk to me.
i tried to say hi and smile at people but some wont return me the same thing.
although some people i know and they know me,
they pretended they nvr see me and walk away.
am i very anti-social?
sometimes i find people ignoring me when i ask them questions.
and sometimes i also feel very left out..
for example,
we go out in a group,
i find myself being the most left out sometimes.
and i find myself stupid to be bullied and used by people once and once again.
why can't i stand for my own right?
why do they keep using me to fufil their motives?
maybe it is because i always alone at home..
that makes me anti-social and don't feel like speaking.
i don't think anyone can understand that loneliness feeling.
i hope things can change for the better,or maybe i can change.
i don't like things the way they are now.
i hope that i can be more likeable.and not always be left out.
i hope people will return my smile and do not treat me as invisible..
please,i am a human and i have feelings too.
do not hurt me and think that i am okay with it.
today is a rotten day.
always,i hope tommorow will be better than today.
and still,i hope so.

today performance,thn go back pri sch.nothing much.bye.

Hello people.
i know this sounds ridiculous but i still want to say.
im eating spaghetti packed from nus bp mentoring!
it's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo yummy!
hahas.i want to learn how to make real tomato sauce!
more healthier.
dont be jealous for not being to be able to eat the spaghetti;D
hahas.
morning went to sch meet fharah,who is already waiting for me at the bus stop,thn went to foryer.
we car-ed on mdm hannah's car.
haha,heard some nice songs.
her car got a lot of toys lei.
hahas.one of them is a yang mehmeh.
thn i say look lk lee minho (p.s. Xueqi,dont kill me)
hahas,cuz of the curly fur.
aft i see mdm hannah's car i feel tempted to buy a car when i grow up nxt time.
hahas,so cool.
thn reach le watch mr bean,listen to speech,thn give certs,clap,take photos.
freezing cold lol.
thn went outside,as fharah is fasting,i accompany her to fast.
hahas:D
mdm hannah drove me and fharah to clementi shopping centre.
actually not really a shopping centre.
on the way we saw a sch written in chinese.
thn mdm hannah call me translate.
as the letters were like written lk olden days handwriting i not sure what is it.
so i said"nan yang sec sch"
"nono,nan hua sec sch"
"eh?gao hua sec sch"
hahas.>< mdm hannah say want tell mrs lim.
omg!pls dont.hahas.thn fharah ask"what is a high sch?"
mdm hannah"secondary school"
me"why bukit merah is not call bukit merah high sch"
hahas,thn mdm hannah say maybe for some political reasons.
thn i say "our sch called lengkok bahru high school?"
sounds so wrong!
hahas.we are the lengkok-bahru rians.
bahru hans?
hahas so awful..
thn aft tt me and fharah go book stall buy stationary and bus-ed home.
im still aimless about what i going to do nxt...
nvm.enough of craps.bye!(:

hello:D
back to blogging.
was really busy this weeks.
that is why.
juggling with homework tests homework tests.
haish.
today had pe.it was fun(:hahas,funny actually.
we keep forming human chains and passing the ball around .
lk cheating lol.
but its not.
and on monday,
i'm gonna be on stage to perform for teacher's day!
omg.stage fright):
haish.home everything will turn out alright.
and i wont forget my steps!!!
today,aft sch,went to opp sch coffee shop and have lunch with mareen and peixuan(:
thn went for aep.
so sad the trainer leaving le.
although he scold us,
he is still a v good trainer.
hahas.hope we will do him proud.
and the shaolin monks are also coming down to watch our performance.
so scary.
and hundreds of people will be looking at us):
haish nxt week band performance.
hope i will be able to play all my pieces.
and exams is coming in a month's time!!!
scaredscared.
flunk my maths paper btw.
totally expected.
tml going for vp mentoring,
hope i will get a female tutor.
and most importantly understand what she is talking,hopefully.
ok.shall stop crapping.
good luck people,for mon !

seriously hope i graduate soon!
dont wan to have cca,for some particular reasons..
2 years,please fast forward!
himhimhimhimhimhimhimhimhimhimhimhimmmmmmmmmm!

Hello:D
im sooooooo TIRED now.
today had sci presentation.
gawd,i think i didn't did well,seriously.
i was so disappointed of myself that i cried..
can you imagine how embarrassing was that?
i hope nobody saw it.
i seldom cry in sch.
one of the rare days..
thn had home econs.
was listening songs with peixuan:)
thn lunch peixuan and mareen tried my mum's egg bread .
they said it's nice!
haha(:
i also tried mareen's and jiaen's shepherd pie.
delicious i tell you!
thn cca..
so long almost fell asleep.
and i have to pay double the band fund cuz that time they announce so soft idk.
wth..waste my parents hard-earned money.
i feel so guilty.
somemore is also not we owe them de.
still pay double..
and i almost had no money to eat cuz idk muz bring money..
thn went home,eat,bathed,did lit project.planning to do home econs now:)
ok.tt's all for today.bye!

helloo.
had not been blogging for sometime as i was busy and lazy too.><
so gonna update wad's going on in my life
hahas.every week same.
sch wushu ccaccacca...................
band is praticing to prepare for the performance at ToaPayoh HDB Hub.
come and support us if your free:D
zzz.life's getting boring.haish.it's likee aft national day everything went to gloomy.
This is the part i hate my life.Everyday study hw tests..
Streaming this year must work hard.
i hate studying!!!!!!!
but i know it's for my own good my future..
wadever.
but without going to sch like holi,whole day stay at home sth.
thn is like my head will pain.
sleep too much.
but study ltr i so tired...
haiyooooo.
thn this sat a bit diff.
went for cip at bm library.
was fun and boring at times.
hahas.maybe i can be a librarian?
hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa._______________________.
thn hsuen chi ask me want watch whr got ghosts.
so finish le chiong to 7-eleven buy double cookie and bused to tiong.
thn w8-ted for hsuen chi.
thn she buy tickets me buy popcorn and went in cuz 7pm start already.
the movie was nice :D
haha scary and funny like the name "sia dao siao"
haha i write hanyu pinyin like scared until crazy.but is scared until laugh.hahas.
lols.thn aft tt went to kfc eat and go home.cuz late le.thn i missed my bof in front part!!!
ltr catching at youtube._.
i want my hair to grow longer!!!
very regret tt time cut.lols.so waste..:(
tml sch again boring..
and already one month nvr tution if i nxt week cancel.
i think cher is angry cuz she nvr reply me..i feel so bad..:(
hopeeee my week gets better.
and results too.
i flunked my history paper and when recieve tt time i heard people shocked gaspings;D
almost cried.i can pass but its my biggest careless mistake!
haish dont talk bout it le.
g2g le bye!:)

your friend,
hui lian

hello!
today had band performance in sch.
so nervous lei!
luckily stomach nvr pain!
^^hahas,
is cool.
people clapped for us.
but i dont think i did well!
cuz when they crab walk stop tt time i still walk.
im such a !@#%^&
sorry!
but i manage to do the popper right!
hahas,at least.___.
aft tt went to eat kfc with peixuan mareen and eugena,thn go my hse.
use com search a lot of thgs.
thn they went home at around 2++?so early
guai.__.
hahas,i use com until now lol.
god,mom's ignoring me.cuz i make her angry.but for little thgs only.
she ignore me today:(:(:(
haish.
byebye.

Hello,
im just going to say about second chance.
people make mistakes,
whether small or big
if they are sincerely trying to change,
will you give them are second chance?
they might regret what they done,
i think they deserve a second chance,
just because they made a mistake,
it is not equals to you can judge them for it
it is unfair to them,
you may say a leopard never changes its spots,
but they do deserve a second chance,
we should give them some time,
start afresh and they will prove it to us,
and we can re-judge them again.
so,
please give the people around you a SECOND CHANCE.
They will appreciate it.
Thankyou,
so boring stay at home.zzz.yawns**
i feel lk eating fried chicken and fries!!!
byee..